Tomorrow I return to work, after the most amazing 3 weeks of my life. Three weeks of baby snuggles, a full heart and feeling as though everything you have dreamed of has finally all come true.
It is hard to believe that just a few weeks ago I was anxious knowing that I would be out of the workplace for 3 weeks. Now, I’m most anxious knowing that I’m leaving Conor and that I might miss something. He and I have developed a routine, a rhythm and a connection that I can’t explain. I know his every squeak, noise and when he’s upset he immediatly settles when placed in my arms. I was worried that it might be a difficult transition of him, that it was going to be difficult for R to adjust to being a stay at home Dad. Then tonight after fighting sleep, I went into Conor’s room and saw him sound asleep on R’s chest and knew immediately everything was going to be ok.
This is going to be a great opportunity of R. He is going to get to experience the joy and fun that I have.
Our little monkey is amazing, he is already wise beyond his age (all three weeks of it). When snuggled up with one of his Dad’s I just see his future, the chance to give him every opportunity, and when he stumbles he has two loving Dad’s to pick him up and cheer him on to keep going.
I knew we always wanted to be parents, but now I completely understand the unconditional love, the feeling that you want everything for your child and the shift from your needs being first to suddenly your needs are those of your child. Parenthood is amazing, and we are rocking this.
Yes I return to work tomorrow, but everything is going to be ok. I’m letting go of my need to handle everything and realize that this is a great opportunity for Conor and R to really bond. All is good. Back to work tomorrow.. thank goodness for FaceTime, texts and telephone calls!